Baby it's a fine line...

I heard this great song by Little Big Town on the radio today and it really resonated with me. I've heard the song before but i never really stopped to think about the lyrics. It really described how i had been feeling for a while:

Completely complacent
So excitedly vacant
I keep waiting for something to give
But that something is always me
You consume what your able
I get crumbs from your table
You call this comfortably normal
But i call it getting by

Baby its a fine line
Im holding on your holding back
Baby its a fine line
Cant you hear it knockin at your door
But your taking your sweet time
In love and out of touch yeah
Baby its a fine line
Baby its a real fine line

Do you feel the distance
Like i feel resistance
If i pull any farther away
Would you even come after me
But the one thing im fearing
Is im disappearing
How can i keep believing
If you wont prove me wrong

Baby its a fine line
Im holding on your holding back
Baby its a fine line
Cant you hear it knockin at your door
But your taking your sweet time
In love and out of touch yeah
Baby its a fine line
Baby its a real fine line

Yeah I'm Free, Free Falling

As I lay in my bed on my brand new sheets and comforter, courtesy of Bed, Bath, & Beyond, reading the highly addicting and suspenseful, "Office Policies and Procedures," I can't help but realize the incredible changes I am going through in my life right now. I've finally landed a job and the fear of going broke and having no health insurance has disappeared. I'm surrounded by some of the most amazing friends a woman could ask for. Two of my best friends have had a baby. The summer has been packed with fun weekends that have included meeting new people. And I'm now starting to experience and enjoy what it's like to be single and dating again. There are so many directions I can take right now and so many things I could write about. I truly believe I'm experiencing one of the most exciting moments of my life right now. I look back at the past two years when I have been in grad school and it's amazing to me the difference in how I felt. Looking at my life in this very moment, I am confident that I made the right decision to move back to Minnesota. Although it's very hard for me to be away from my family, I can tell that I am a much happier person right now then I was a year ago.

I think the best part, and at the same time the scariest part, is that I have no idea what is in store for me in the coming days, months, and years! When you're in school, there is always an agenda set out for you and a series of tasks you know you have to complete. But now I'm finally done with school and I have a job. I try to imagine where i'm going to be a year from now, who I will meet, where i've come in my career, and my mind goes blank because, really, anything can happen and anything is possible. It's the most exhilirating feeling in the world. It's like I'm free falling and who knows where or who I will land next! :)